journal of a struggling vet student

i am peeping on someone's lj and im enjoyig it. made me thought suddenly...

what about a shift?

stupid i know.. but somehow its funny how things sometimes turn out. i suddenly felt wanting to be somebody again. come on naman..

the alpo thing was temporarily cancelled. rustan's katipunan has run out of alpo 2-in-1 and naturally, i was pulled out. how the hell can i make people buy the product when the store isn't selling it at present? another option was market market. but its so malayo naman. i'll be coming from caloocan pa. because of that i wont be going to work this weekend. am here at a friend's place. ken and kc enjoy charmed dvd. aning has taken over my place (hate her..) while i.. uhm.. peep over somebody's lj. :)

bulshit. miss you.

sometimes i just need to get straight to it and let it out. woo-hoo. that was excruciatingly sweet. no need for more words i guess. i have drowned and puked every hurtful feeling brought about by the encounter.

just drop by. yesterday while waiting for my friends in a nearby internet shop, i composed an entry for tabulas. when i clicked on thye post entry button, something went wrong. gone was the entry. and now i still am embittered by that. this is enough.

 to summarize what happened yesterday.

-i have cleared the physio book already after a 4-month affair

-saw my batchmates again

-something i wont tell anyone

-got my pay for the proofread articles

and.. got a regular paying job. GREAT!

must get back to work now.. 

another break. work is really so tiring but satisfying. i really enjoying. really. though im a bit slow, i think i can finish this tomorrow. well hopefully..

shyet puta. adam levine in the makes me wonder video gives me a boner. tang ina shet ang sexy. 

and ive been playing the song bajillion  times already.

classes resume tomorrow!!!!! 

I fell in love with Doc L today. Even during the past year, i have always anticipated the middle aged man i commonly found outside the anat lobby, smoking with the vetmed guys and squishing the cigarette butt off the lobby pavement. I have always sensed that thee is something about him which is unique. Now I am ascertained.

There is something in him I want to have when I reach his age. The well pressed attire which has always been one of his trademarks in vetmed (Which i surmised he got from Doc M, who was once his professor.), the witty remarks that have always given me a kick, the funny gestures that has kept boredom at bay, or just the over-all aura of being an academician who walks around like some funny cosmic conspirator.

Another thing that amuses me more is the way he reasons out, which calls to my mind a sharp headed uncle. Comments come out point blank and with no excuses. He's like a vintage Lamborghini speeding along the high way not minding the other wheels around. Now that's a metaphor. He speaks his own opinions and speak of it nonchalantly.

But earlier during the Pharma Lab, i felt uncomfortable about myself. It was like i was whoring me those antics I've been dishing out. Like so cheap. I'm so ashamed with myself! Charing!

In other news...

Putanginangpakshetnapukengkalabawnasanamabitsnamandude!!!

Why does that have to happen?!

Do i really want to crumble the long preserved dharma that has kept me in such a sane state?!

Do I want to self-destruct when the inevitable comes?!

What the fuck happened to me earlier?!

Whhaaaaat?!

TskTskTsk..

What now jeorgie?

its friday today. while the whole non-vetmed population of uplb starts their long weekend today, we at cvm are still working our asses off. but it's actually a good thing for me. for reasons you don't have to know.

today i finally met doc masangkay. i first saw him during the cvm presentation last faculty folies where he was in a monkey suit throwing animal jokes at the audience. he did very good! but i never thought he was a lot better inside the classroom.

i should have seen a day earlier in patho lec had i had the right mind to attend yesterday's classes. instead i attended the para lab, the class after patho lec, on which i came five minutes late (can you imagine how delinquent i was?!). there i saw the indefatigable and famous world authority on helminthology, one of the very few academicians i know who are of professor 12 status, and uhm.. belongs to the same universe as i am.. whahaha.. to cut it all short, i finally met dr salcedo. he was like.. so.. so.. wonderful! haha.. i was amused by the way he threw his hands on air.. just like that! plus the overview on parasitology he gave was nothing short of clear. and.. i was voted prefect.. yes dear, just like in harry potter. :)

if dr salcedo was wonderful, dr masangkay is god. let him lecture for 20 minutes and you'll definitely forget what boredom is. he incorporates into his lectures many pertinent and fascinating trivia. he delivers the lecture so precisely and you can really tell how passionate he is in what he does. albeit he looks very strict given his grandfatherly countenance, he can be approachable naman.

earlier i felt that the impetus to excel should come from the wanting to be recognized by these brilliant people. i mean its a plus that the very brilliant people in the veterinary profession remember you for being brilliant student too diba? it's not to pave the way for sucking up really, its just that doing it actually hits multiple birds with one stone-- you get to give your best in whatever you, and if you succeed, you get the brilliant vet doctors to take notice of you, and more importantly, and get good grades. diba?

this is a boring day. only 2 lab classes. zotc 115 lasted only for an hour. gi and i had an early lunch and tried to lose consciousness among the chairs and tables of LR 2. puta sumakit likod ko pati leeg. then dr masangkay didn't show up for patho lab. or maybe he just came late. with the patho lab locked and my classmates out of sight, o left cvm at 1:30 and went to work.

kaya eto ako ngayon, chumechever. 

last week i went gaga over makes me wonder. ngaun yung kay julienne naman, tulak ng bibig. ewan, ang ganda ng flow nung kanta sa tenga ko. tapos ang sweet pa ng boses ni julienne. haay. andito ako sa work. haven't taken my lunch yet. fly ako later sa manila. hindi ko pa napapaayos yung fone ko. at may utang pa ako kay lolo byrone!

 okay naman tong week na to. wehehe..

excited for next week. another week of silent reverie. (kung mababasa ni limbay to, magkokoment yun ng.. "WTF?!". ewan ko, kanina nung nagbbrowse ako ng friends bigla kong nakita ang damuhong si limbay at namiss ko bigla. ayun, binigyan ko ng testi. tapos si lolo by den. ang saya ng comment-system ng friendster nagun, ang bilis.

hangang ngaun wala pa rin akong mga librong references. actually pwede namang humiram sa lib pero dahil sa ako ang kaartehan personified, ipapaphotocopy ko ang mga references. the hell muna about intel prop rights. ang problema, kelangan ko magraise ng 1.5k for all the books. puta wala pa akong datung.

so far ayus pa naman ang sem, ayoko mang iadmit dahil baka makarma ako, pero parang enjoy naman ako. academically at that. pero siguro dahil bago pa lang at siguro next week baka nagmumura na ako. tingnan natin.

haay.. ganito talaga kapag hindi mo masabi sa blog ang talagang gusto mong sabihin. kaya kung saan-saan napupunta ang daloy ng post. :)