June 6th, 2008
weekend ruminations
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i havent updated my tabulas for a month now. i have been sooo busy with work and for two saturdays, the reading room (where the pcs are) was closed for fumigation. fumigation. reading room. i just dont know if they take all these books out first before they fumigate. i've read somewhere that the chemicals used in fumigation are somewhat damaging to the books. i wish the guys know it. although most of these books are those that you would not even give a second to glance at, they're still books.
the workplace. there are changes that are going to push through this month. for one, a tenured ACE coach will be moving to the training team. so, my favorite bitch anna will be the one to take her place. we've been having issues with the ace-soon to be trainer so it was a relief for us that someone from our batch will finally be taking over as the POC. since this tenured coach used to handle another account, another favorite bitch of mine, janna will take over as the POC of that account. with this set-up, and with the 3 months or so worth of exposure, we can finally do our thing and help one aother out during the dreaded reports. And this time, we'll make sure that if another batch of ace coaches arrives, we'll really make sure they'd get the proper support they deserve. of course that is not suppose to say we did not. but thinking about it now, we probably did not. but then the lab was fresh from some controversies when we arrived and in a somewhat bad shape so our on-boarding process was sort off rushed. kaya kame, hinog sa pilit. wow. ampangit ng metaphor. haha.
question. if you've been trying hard to get a nice to a person and this person doesn't show any effort at all (or tries in an amount almost negligible) to somewhat reciprocate your kind gestures, what should you do? sometime this week, i tried to greet someone as we pass by each other along the hall. her response: a stare. something whose content i have no idea about. i am so much indebted to this person. i mean, she was the one who actually endorsed me to be an ACE coach. so imagine the discombobulations i was having whenever she would suddenly play the hostile bitch. i was like, okay so if you dont like me, so be it. but then at some (short) times she'd be nice. so i'd be nice. then she becomes hostile again. and the almost vicious cycle goooeeees on.
another thing. i am drawn into thinking about being from UP again. i dunno. earlier when the team washaving meeting the boss, he (the boss) was playing a joke about having someone tied up with a LAN cord and asked me. "marunong ka ba ng knots? taga-UP ka diba?" i just smiled. i mean, what was that about?! naloka naman ako. what is the correlation with knot tying being from UP? does he suggest that all UP peeps ought to know how to tie a knot? cant la salle people know that? (this guy was from la salle) but then maybe im just being overly analytical of things. maybe that's joke i didn't recognize. so there. i thought, in this type of environment, how can i demonstrate the values i learned from UP? parang tanga ba? i dopnt know. i just feel that somehow i need to give my university some credit.
e ano-ano nga ba ang natutunan ko sa peyups? first. react to injustice and provide an better alternative. i felt the first phrase is needed to be coupled with the second one so as to avoid immediate opposition. i've been to countless (?) rallies and at least whenever i am in one, the cause could solicit a valid feeling from me. no to injustice. but. the injustices i am accustomed to are social in nature. whereas here, the "injustices" are somewhat petty. and to react to these injustices and provide alternatives would only suggest being too sensitive and needlessly over-analytical. yung mga tipong hindi mu na talaga papatulan. tulad nung isang trainr na kung magsalita sa mga coaches e akala mo hindi nagtatrabaho ng ayos. i mean, i know we work. she can take a look at the numbers for all she wants but god knows we do our jobs. although ngalit-ngalit ko naklang sabihin na kaya ganyan ang mga associates ay dahil yung ibang coaches na sinundan namen e walang ginawa para matuwid yung mga dila nila. well, i tried to reason out that before we could straighten their pronunciations, we need to change their mindset about ACE first. i thought it was a good point. but what i received was a mocking smile. so there's your inustice. i consider that petty really. so i did not bother speak again. did i denounce my UP spirit with that? second. love of knowledge. even though i am on LOA, my learning doesnt end. its good to read modern classics. ayos. but really, it is something you dont want to flaunt.
now the thought of going to manila and working there is flirting with me. i rty not to give it much thought though. i mean, i love being an ACE coach, i really do. but the idea of a higher salary is sometimes irresistable. diba?
haay. happy weekends everyone. :)