July 29th, 2008
goodbye!
in two days, my former ACE trainer will be relocating to bacoor to be a lab supervisor. not that i am sad, (of course neither that i am happy). i guess i just want to share something new about the lab. funny it is that in the middle of trying to write about something you'll realize that there has not been enough emotions that would fuel the whole effort.
oh well.
these pat weels i suddenly realized that i haven't been enjoying my salary at all. for the record: i still did not get the ACE coach pay. but that didn't stop me from downing a few bottles while singing my heart out together with some office friends. which was followed by a super heavy meal at some fast food chain. cost me around 800 in total. when i got home and actually divided the salry for the expenses, boom. i only had enough left for two week's allowance. i felt so pityful after realizing that i've been such a one-day-millionaire. before, my weakness had been books. now that i get to experience the party places Lipa has to offer, a considerable portion of my salary's been drained to these places. and i always go home feeling a pang of regret. this has to end.
starting this payday, i resolve to not going anywhere during the payday and allocating my salary to the expenses first. this would actually make me consider how much is to spent out for having fun. i dont want to end up wondering where everything went and worrying how to make ends meet with the dregs of my salary. hahaha.
shit. these really are not the things i want to say. haay.
okay. i have to say i'm quite happy that someone will finally leave. this is me doing such a bravado. i felt that ever since, this person did not really make everyone of us welcome. this person makes moves at her own time and it really bothers us when she'd be nasty at one minute and be nice at the next. but, could it just be me asking for too much? have i keeping a firm stand on how we should be treated as newbies and from the start, had i been the one who had been secretly wanting the dictate the rules? am i just jealous that she WAS the rule and that the whole lab actually revolves about what she says? maybe.
but i would never deny that maybe, there'd be some relief the minute she assumes her role as a lab supervisor. i mean, i dont wish her ill. i really wish her all the best because she us damn good at what she does. apart from scaring the hell out of the coaches. heehee. but i guess her absence would just enable most of us to crack out of our shells and somewhat expand our personalities more, no more scared to think about what she would think.
but i realized that her being like that had something to do with her being in the lab for more than a year and keeping ties with the tenured people of the lab. plus she is exclusive. what would happen to her there? will she be able to mute her personality and blend with the pre-existing atmosphere? or will she lay all her cards at once and exercise her old ways? i ahve no idea.
to you: thank you soo much for opening the avenue for me. until now i really had no idea how should i relate with you so i can only always hope that you'll arrive in a good mood. but i wish you all the best. i objectively believe that you are very good and the new lab is very lucky to have someone as competent as you. i hope you got the dandelion blurb. i hope we'll see again. :)